The last several years have been an interesting time for me with a lot of energies coming up for clearing from my generational lineage and learning how to more effectively release generational karma.

The earth has been in darkness for a long time and during this time of awakening a lot of energies are coming up for clearing. Many of us are doing the work of healing for the collective consciousness. It’s not an easy process, but it is necessary and important for the progression of humanity.

Whatever karma our parents didn’t work out will often carry onto their children or grandchildren, whomever have unconsciously agreed to take on the energy.

Whatever patterns our parents were unable to heal will continue through the generations until someone finally transmutes the energy. For each generation, the energies will become stronger and more intense.

For example, if there is abuse going on in the generational lineage, that abuse will get worse until someone finally heals the energy of abuse.

We are not separate and when we heal ourselves, we also heal those around us.

My mom passed away years ago and I took on different energies from her. I have been working on transmuting them ever since. Lightworkers often incarnate into families that have a lot of heavy karma, so that they can clear it. It’s not a glorious job, but an important one.

However, it wasn’t until my dad passed away in 2020 that things became really interesting for me. I want to share my story as I think it’s an important lesson about how we are all connected and how energies travel within family structures and continue until they are healed.

Now is the time to heal these energies.

Right after my dad passed away I started having emotions that were very unlike me to have. I remember I started to feel like a victim, and even manifested circumstances that would “prove” my victimhood.

I would normally manifest miracles in my life daily, but all of a sudden I felt cursed! Even little things which should be easy became difficult and frustrating.

My dad could be described as a “victim” in the marriage with my mom. I put victim in quotation because there truly are no victims, only volunteers. But those who live in victim consciousness are usually not aware of that.

There are no accidents or coincidences. Everything happens by Divine Law and anyone who is “abused” have a soul contract with the “abuser”. A soul may come into this lifetime wanting to learn what it would be like to be abused, and will create circumstances that look abusive. This will create contrast and a feeling of being separate from God. This is so the soul can evolve and find its way back to God/truth.

Our soul chooses to experience many things we as human egos or personalities would call “bad”. This is because our souls are on this planet to learn, grow and experience what it’s like to be in human bodies and live in limitation.

What our soul wants to experience is often not what we as human personalities or egos want to experience, so we judge it as “bad”. Having said this, by no means does this mean that we shouldn’t have compassion for those going through abuse or that their pain is not real. It’s very real and I have the outmost compassion for anyone going through such an experience or any other traumatic experience.

No matter what it looks like in life, there are no “accidents”. Everything is happening by Divine Law and order even when our human minds don’t understand why something is happening.

Anyways, my dad went through emotional abuse daily from the moment I was born until my parents divorced when I was 14. My mom had a lover and would see him every Thursday. That was the day when my dad would cook dinner. Which usually was a sorry creation of cold fish cakes that weren’t cooked long enough. A stark contrast to my mom’s good home cooking meals and another stab of feeling shameful about my family.

The lover was what my dad was not. He had a lot of money and would take my mom out to fancy dinners and buy her fancy things – things my dad couldn’t do for her but probably wanted to do if he could.

More than once my mom would show up to breakfast Friday mornings with new jewelry or expensive clothing. Of course, this was triggering to my dad who would ask if the neckless, or whatever it was, was new and she would say that her lover gave it to her. In front of all of us. (We had sit down breakfasts around the table with my family growing up every day!)

My dad would usually suppress a lot of the anger, but there were times he would completely loose it and throw a glass of milk at the wall with glass and milk splattering all over us.

It was painful to grow up like this. I too suppressed a lot of the pain, anger and shame, as that was the only way I would be able to cope at the time. This is what we often do when processing our emotions are too much to handle.

But any emotion that is not fully expressed becomes an energy block stuck in our energy field. These blocks create both mental, emotional, spiritual and physical pain if we don’t release the emotions. Even illness.

Most illness is a result of suppressed emotions causing blockages in our body.

You can learn more about suppressed emotions in this blog.

The shame I felt was deep, yet I couldn’t put words on how I felt. I just felt wrong. I knew something was wrong about my mom having a lover. It wasn’t even a secret. Most people knew. It didn’t help that my mom was a teacher at my school when I was a teenager. I was ashamed of my mom for her actions.

I resented her for being so mean to my dad. She was verbally and emotionally abusive towards my dad daily while also having a lover on the side. Of course, my dad was part of the arrangement. He could have left, but he didn’t. (Clearly his soul had chosen to have this experience.)

Remember, there are no victims, only volunteers. This was part of the reality they had chosen coming into this incarnation. I am not trying to make anyone wrong here, just explain the scenario and the emotions that were triggered by this love triangle.

My mom and dad clearly had an agreement!

Anyways, the point I want to make was that there was a lot of suppressed energies of anger, shame, resentment, hopelessness, unworthiness, abuse and victimhood that was stuck in my dad’s energy field that he had not processed when he passed away.

Even though he manifested a beautiful woman as a new wife and they had a wonderful marriage, the deeper parts of him was not fully healed. The energies had never been released and processed from his energy body.

In fact, my dad chose to forget rather than to face the pain. The pain must have been too much for him to process so he showed it under the rug. I don’t blame him one bit. (I am sharing this is all with the greatest love for both my parents.)

As a result he developed early Alzheimers and lived the last 18 years of his life with amnesia. It was easier to not remember the pain or the events that caused it.

But as he passed, somehow these energies were handed over to me. Like an instant download, I could notice it almost immediately when I suddenly started to feel like a victim after he passed. But even after transmuting that energy of victimhood, other emotions started to surface over the last two years that I didn’t quite understand. Why did I feel this way? I had healed a lot of my own disempowering emotions and beliefs over a long period of time and I couldn’t pinpoint why I felt the way I did. It simply made no sense to me at first.

Well, eventually the picture became more and more clear that I was processing more of my dad’s energies. Of course, we are not conscious about having these energies in our subconscious, but when something is in your energy field or subconscious, it will trigger events and circumstances to that pretty much shows you what is in your energy field.

If you wonder what’s in your energy field, take a look at what’s showing up in your life.

What you see in your life is always a reflection of you and your energy field, whether you understand it or not. We create everything in our life, even when we don’t understand why we would create a certain circumstance.

Being a very powerful and near instant manifester I created a lot trauma and pain as a result of carrying these “new” energies. Circumstances that would prove that something was going on in my subconscious and energy field as we create everything we experience and everything is created from our consciousness.

The best way to know whats in your subconscious is to see what is showing up in your life. If you see it outside of you, it’s also inside of you. In fact, the inside of you created it. It’s coming from within whether you want to admit it or not.

Everything is projection of your energy field. Of course, most of this is unconscious energies stuck in the subconscious mind. Our job is to make these energies conscious and to clear them. To shed light on the shadow and integrate it.

The truth is these energies were not new at all. They were energies I had previously had to process and thought I had cleared completely. But there are always new layers. So it would be fair to say that part of these energies were deeper layers of my own healing as well as energies my dad had taken on from his ancestors.

And, I know that I also did a lot of healing for the collective consciousness as well.

When we suppress emotions, they don’t go away.

To learn more about suppressed emotions and how they wreak havoc on your energy field, read this blog.

Spiritual awakening is not just sunshine and roses as I have said a lot of times, but it requires us to face the deepest and darkest parts of ourselves. Anything else is spiritual bypass.

We must feel our feelings and not make our emotions wrong.

Anything that triggers you is an opportunity to heal.

Your soul is creating these events so that you can finally heal. When shit hits the wall, it’s an opportunity to heal and forgive. You can learn more about forgiveness in this blog.

Life is happening for you, not to you. You are a conscious creator of it all. The people in your life are just actors playing out the lessons you need to learn and have agreed for them to play before you incarnated.

Instead of saying: Why is this happening to me, a better, more productive question would be: Why did I chose to experience this and what is this teaching me?

I can tell you, clearing the energies of anger, shame, victimhood, hopelessness, abuse and unworthiness was not an easy job. I understand why my dad didn’t have the capacity to face them himself. He didn’t have the tools I have at my disposal. Had I not had the tools I have, I don’t know if I would have made it through this period. My soul may have opted to leave instead.

Our minds (energy field) create everything in our life and we can create heaven on earth or hell, and I have done both. Of course having the tools to pull myself out of “hell” was very helpful and I could do it a lot faster than someone who doesn’t have those tools and don’t understand of how the mind works.

Heaven or hell is not a place outside of yourself, but a state of mind.

Nobody is coming to save you. Christ is inside of you and you need to save yourself! It’s a matter of living in Christ Consciousness, which is essentially the energy of love.

In order to do that, we need to heal and let go of the limitations and judgements of the ego and learn to live from a place of love. If we carry a lot of anger, resentment, sadness or pain, it lowers the vibration. We need to learn to love everything, also the things we don’t like. It’s a process of healing, doing shadow work and forgiveness as well as living from a higher level of awareness and unity consciousness.

How do we release generational karma you may ask?

By feeling our feelings! By releasing them and no longer suppressing them. Cry when you need to cry. Release the anger, shame, sadness or whatever you are dealing with and work on forgiveness. This can be easier said than done, because if something is suppressed, it means you can’t really access it consciously, but that doesn’t mean it’s not there, stored deep in your body.

If you’re not able to access it, there are ways to release this from your energy field.

One way is with flower essences. Flowers are healing gifts to humanity and their essences are powerful at clearing the energy bodies.

Australian Bush Flower Essences are great essences that work deeply into your energy bodies. I especially recommend the essence Boab from the Australian Bush Flower Essences as they specifically target generational karmic patterns.

If you want to use flower essences, I recommend you read up on them and educate yourself so you have an understanding on how they work and which would be best for you and what you are going through specifically.

The flower essences are conscious energies that work along with what you need, at the level you need and there are no harmful side effects besides releasing the energies, which can feel intense of course.

These essences are vibrational, yet they work differently from homeopathy and they can’t do you harm like taking the wrong homeopatic remedy potentially could.

You can also use essential oils for this, but as I’m not a deep expert on essential oils and wouldn’t know which oils to guide you to specifically. I’ve heard black pepper and white fir can be used but you would need to research further which oils are best and how to best use them for this purpose.

Energy healing is also a good way to clear these energies as well as any modalities that assist you in reprogramming the subconscious mind. But in order to reprogram something you need to know what needs reprogramming. Energy healing and flower essences work differently in that the healing energies will just go to where they are most needed and you don’t necessarily need to know exactly what to focus on. The energy will know what to do!

Many of the healing modalities I do can address this as well. (I may create an audio healing for this when I have the chance.)

Certain types of meditation work well also. Especially Kundalini Yoga Kriyas such as Sudarshan Chakra Kriya. This is the most powerful Kriya in all of yoga, and it’s said to cut off all darkness and clear karma.

But this is an advanced kriya and I would advise you not to try this unless you already are familiar with and trained in Kundalini Yoga and understand how to do this properly. You don’t want to “blow a fuse” doing something you’re not fully understanding.

Forgiveness practices such as Ho’Oponopono or other types of forgiveness practices are also very helpful as Forgiveness clears karma.

To learn more about forgiveness, you read this blog.

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